Much like with last week’s prompt, I ended up thinking about this a lot. I probably over thought it, honestly, because by Thursday all I could do was stare at my notebook, thinking, dayum, Sara, you are boring.
I don’t think I have any kind of personal practice! I don’t really celebrate the sabbats and esbats, I have no deities to pray too, I haven’t been working seriously with the tarot enough for it to be considered a practice and, honestly, I barely work magic. What kind of witch am I?! A boring one. Or maybe not one at all.
And then, after a lot more thinking, I remembered that I am a baby pagan.
I’ve been reading about wicca, witchcraft, and mythology since I was eleven or twelve, but I’ve only started to really start practicing within the last year and a half or so. I’ve been all over the place in that year and half. I’ve celebrated the sabbats, thinking ‘I feel stupid’ and ‘I’m not doing this right’. I don’t perform magic often magic often because I haven’t felt like I’ve ever had a situation that warrants its use.
And I should figure it out. I should do less reading and studying in the subject,and actually apply what I’ve learned in my life. Not having a practice makes me feel lazy…and it makes others think I’m not serious about this, when I am. Perhaps it’s time for me to stop being to flippant and irreverent in my activities. It’s time to buckle down.